What will come will come.
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[day eleven] God, if I were going to console others like I would like to be consoled, I would…
sit with them. there have been so many times that all I needed was to sit and be with someone. no talking necessary. some things just have to processed in your head. being alone in times of tragedies are hard and sometimes you just need a friend to be present. especially if you’ve just experienced the loss of a friend, family member, or loved one; it’s important to have a friend close to you to know that not everybody is gone; you still have people around who you love and love you back. compliments and reassurances are nice, but sometimes you just need to sit in silence together.
listen. I know it’s hard to accept reality sometimes, but everybody copes differently. if you need to talk it out, just ramble, maybe repeat yourself, it’s good to know that you have somebody there listening to you. even if you’re not making any sense, there are a million thoughts floating around in your head and after all that silent processing you just need to get them out. and you want somebody there to listen to all of it so that you feel like you’re not as alone as you think you are.
embrace. hugs are healing. boom.
[day ten] God, please help me trust Your wisdom and words concerning…
a college lifestyle. Be with me in the times when I want nothing more than to give up. Help me to know that a lifetime with you is more significant than a night of mayhem. Remind me that it will pay off in the long run. I know that fun can be had in simple ways; I’ve lived it. Continue to surround me with good people who feel and act the same way as me. Lord, be with my friends who live recklessly. I know you love them and are waiting for the day that they come home. Help me to continue to be a light to them so that they might see the benefits of a real relationship with you. Help me to love them as you do so that they may come home to you soon.
my relationships. Be with me when I want to argue with my parents. Remind me that they are an extension of you and whatever they tell me to do is only to keep me safe, not to hinder me from living my own life. In my friendships, remind me who is important and who is not. Help me to realize what is hurtful and to remove it from my life. Keep the people who matter close to me so that I can learn from them and we can grow together with you.
difficult decisions. Give me guidance to know whether or not I’m making the right choice. Blind me from wordly things that I should avoid. Help me live Christlike so that I can better my life. Show me how to move forward from a life of impurity so that I may be closer to you. Help me to know the difference between weaknesses and strengths. Keep me in sight so that I can forever be yours. Amen.
[day nine] God, help loosen my grip on…
this show. I’ve been too close to it for so long and it hasn’t even started yet. (T -7hours). Help me to realize that what happens isn’t according to me. That isn’t to say that I shouldn’t take responsibility for things, but everything is according to your will. Help me to know that if things weren’t supposed to work out like this, they wouldn’t have. You put all of us in these positions because it was in your plan. Help me to have an open mind when going into this project. Father, I know it will be a beautiful one. Please give me a heart of passion to do all that I can to help this run smoothly, but Lord, help me to stay distant enough that I don’t fall into a mindset of ownership. This show is not mine to share, but Yours. As is everything. Thank you for giving me this opportunity, and thank you for everybody else who is involved. Thank you for giving me the patience and the endurance to stick it out when I feel overwhelmed. Thank you for loving me so that I can love others. Amen.
Best of the Best.
I firmly believe that nothing makes me feel better than listening to worship music. Not even worship music, but Christian bands in general. Even if I’m having a great day, listening to this music makes me feel a million times better. Listening to music has always been an integral part of my daily routine, like I don’t think there has been a day when I haven’t listened to some kind of music since I was probably 11. But this music specifically makes me feel great. The messages that the lyrics leave us with make you feel loved. Beautiful. Complete. And everything applies to my life. Nothing like that crazy stuff you’d be hearing on the popular hit stations. This stuff is real and wonderful. I don’t want to hear how a guy wants to objectify me or see me with my clothes off. I’d much rather hear how much I am loved for being who I am and there is nothing I can do or not do to ever stop being loved. This music makes my heart feel like it has a real purpose. I mean, it beats to keep my blood flowing so that I can remain alive, but I wouldn’t even have life if it weren’t for the immense love that my God has for me. And I wouldn’t even know about this music if it wasn’t for God loving all of these amazing artists and giving them the words to sing to me. I just love this music and it makes me want to share its messages with the world. So far, this is as far as I’ve gotten.
